A Second Singing

the city

                                    resists my room

                                    my small brown room

 

a chestnut half buried in mud

a hard brown shell in spring

           

                                    an Easter

 

where do I put myself and why?

 

 

 

 

on Sunday now I stay in bed—

rest

* * *

the morning as though –

 

            these formal histories

 

remain?

and October?

 

            of the light and water

            stone      rain      the city

 

some part of what I’ll say

is obscured

in these materials

 

call them what I won’t return to

call them what is lost what was left

when I spend an afternoon

restless and looking

 

            what do I think

            it is

            I am trying to tell you

 

winter coming

stepping in the door

looking back to shut it

that grey bright sliver of street

that change of someone passing

* * *

Some days are my inheritance

gray and November I want

to see out of them and also

to be inside them though

the endless dissipation the body

turning to heat to waste pass

or spend a life its imagined

or remembered textures. So most time

stopped to remember happens

in an empty room with the internet

the flat word of the screen

standing in for some other place

where something happens. The

news is the poor stay poor in

the necessary rooms waiting

for dinner. I’m in some threshold

looking through two doors.

The rooms are empty but feel

like weight   like the world.

* * *

how many more days can begin with dim light

the half-asked question the glimpse the window

of winter wouldn’t these songs weather it

the time it takes to make a living the past

isn’t even an elegy I find

the family name in the white pages

of the city the heavy phonebook paper

and ink my eyes want to leave my body sell

me some scent something to brighten my mouth

I want a building to wait in means the part

that’s missing means means enough

to live on /lencten/ means before

history we saw the light coming back

* * *

stay home alone the weekend make time

ecstatic spool not everything’s elegy

even dying seconds being alone

thinking back alone at night and young new

york late moving the body the city

living the light and space between the fine

edge of       sadness the other

sidewalk or platform above or below

or next to the traffic what enigma

of history I mean walking mean I want

to feel the feeling again almost un-

safe having so little and so much

time and now and now and now and now and

* * *

the generous

            moment

             so full of plants

sound of insects

               passing cars sometimes

static forms

     buildings

     sky

I

want

     more

than anything

                 evaporating

                 on the sidewalk

August

                 after the rain

some time

                 so distant

                 it’s dying

is too

what I

                 ‘ll hold

                  out

Katie Naughton

Katie Naughton is the author of the chapbooks Study (above/ground press, 2021) and A Second Singing (forthcoming from Dancing Girl Press, 2022). Her poetry has been published or is forthcoming in Tupelo Quarterly, Bennington Review, Michigan Quarterly Review, Jubilat, Tagvverk, and elsewhere. She is at work on two collections of poems, “Debt Ritual” and “the real ethereal,” which was a finalist for the 2021 Nightboat Poetry Prize and the 2021 Autumn House Press Book Prize. She is the publicist and an assistant editor at Essay Press, editor at the HOW(ever) and How2 Digital Archive Project (launching in 2022), and founder of Etcetera, a web journal of reading recommendations from poets (www.etceterapoetry.com). She lives in Buffalo, NY, where she is a doctoral candidate in the Poetics program at SUNY – Buffalo